He makes me go...

:)

new journal... coming soon.

yesterday was amazing.

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I'm glad that 9/11 is over. It scares me.

I had a moment with my mom, she let me wipe my snot on her jacket.
My great great aunt is dying of cancer. She has a tumor the size of a watermelon in her stomach, crushing her vital organs, including the only kidney she has.
I saved my tears for outside. And my mom let me blow in her sleeve.

If anyone gets that;
It's love.

How can we all take so much advantage of life? This all happened to my aunt in three weeks. One month ago she was overcoming cancer; one week later a tiny tumor, that ends up growing fast, forms corrupting her whole body.

I think this is what taking drugs would feel like. Except I'm more aware of it.

Kiss or Kill
every Tuesday night!

Tonight's line up:

BANG sugar BANG
Silver Needle
The Knives <---- GO!
Zeitgeist Auto Parts
Terrazzo

If you're not doing anything.. GO!
18+.
$2.
Good Bands.
Nice People.
(Last week there was free Perrier Water.)

Zen Sushi Bar (the club's inside.)
2609 Hyperion Ave.
Silverlake (Los Angeles), CA 90027-3318

scratch all that last entry. (it's been deleted.)

i still hate this place.
but i love my job. 

i'm trying to send jason a song with my slow dial-up connection.
how embarassing.
it's like.. frozen slow.

i fixed my car with my dad today. it was fun.
need your fan belt replaced? i could do it.
need your oil checked? water replaced?
i want to learn how to change oil.

kthnx

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supposed to go see Moose, my loppy eared bunny that we had to give away when we moved, and the new owners weren't awake yet. we drove to covina for nothing.

i didn't get to see Moose.

so i cried. the whole way home. i don't care how old you are [19], you don't take an animal away from someone. exspecially not an aminal like Moose.

i hate society.

i'm really sad right now. i was really looking forward to seeing him.

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I am mad that people go away to college.

Why can't all the good college's be here?

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Aww, I'm super sad now.

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I had a great day.

Has anyone seen the episode of Family Guy, "Road to Europe", where Stewie writes Brian the letter, when he's leaving for Europe? He start's it out, "Dear Stupid Dog," and if you watch Family Guy, you can imagine Stewie's voice. Well, this is to my ex boyfriend, Chris.

Dear Stupid Ex-Boyfriend;

I hope you're drunken and high dirty unprotected sex was full of fake orgasms from that slut, and also plenty of STD's from that slut; down at the river this weekend.  I hope you caught everything you're friends bring in, because SHE'S SLEPT WITH THEM TOO.

You can tell your raunchy, dirty, scummy, loser ass friends to stop calling me on the weekends, because NO, I don't want to hang out with them, or hook up with them. I had plenty fun hooking up with my own friends this weekend.

Love,
Ashley

I'll send it tomorrow. Haha.

That last part was a lie, just because he was jealous that all my friends were guys.

So, tonight we were all at Shane's and I had to be the party pooper and leave early because I have a job. Boo.

Jamie, who is Chris's friend called me while I was in the pool. Shane, being the funny fuck he is, answered it. "FUCK FUCK CUNT FUCK!" I didn't care who it was or anything. All my friends that would of called me, were there, and I had already talked to my mom.

Later I see, who had called. So I called him back saying sorry, but I was with all my guy friends, and we were in the pool, and one of them just answered it because it was ringing. Me: "Oh you know, my friend's parents are out of town, so we've just been hanging out here all weekend." Him: "Oh that's cool, I was seeing if you wanted to catch a movie."

NO YOU GOD DAMN LOSER. Shane was like "why would he even want to?" Haha, I love Shane. He's been so helpful to me lately.

I'm freaking tired. And sunburnt, kind of. Ugh, work tomorrow.

Steph, I'm glad you were there tonight. :)

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I'm not feeling well at all.
I can't back out of the beach day though.
It's just me and Jason, and everyone else backed out.

I wish we would of gone.. like right now, it's 7:15 a.m., so I could see all the hottie surfers.

Shane's having a party tonight. When Pat called me to tell me, I got all excited, because we rarely all hang out together. I was like, "I'll bring the.." and Pat said, "You'll bring the sex." It was exactly like a Family Guy character I couldn't think of. I laughed pretty hard. I hope I'm the only girl there. :)

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I deleted my last whiney entry.

Today was weird.

.. and tonight I'm home alone.

Call me. Or just come over. My door's always open.

Or I.M. me. :o)

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I'm watching 13 Going On 30.

I really like this movie.
Jennifer Garner is beautiful.
I really want some razzles.
I love sappy movies.
Mark Ruffalo is really hot, and I want someone like him.

Shane explained the song Maps to me last night. It almost made me want to cry. I can't beleive I have liked that song for so long now, and I never understood it.

"Love is a battel field."

The version of "Such Great Heights" in Garden State owns you.
I think that's all I want to post right now.
I talked to Jimi last night.
I missed him.
Okay, now I'm done.

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Did anyone else ever watch Pippi Longstockings when they were little kids? The ladies at work bought it for me on DVD for my birthday, so here, at 1:30 a.m. I'm totally watching it. (Plus my sister just texted me, asking me what the horses name was. It's Alfonso.)

It was a long night.

I shouldn't of gone out. I wasn't in the mood, I was just bored. I think I just made everyone mad.

A lot of good came out of tonight. I had a long talk with my mom, whether she took it seriously or not is the question.
I flat out asked her to treat me like a daughter, not a roommate.
And much more.

Still nasaly. I like my voice when it's nasaly.
It's funny.

Alysia, I busted out the dance concert tapes! &hearts;

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I'm sick.

I woke up with a sore throat and a cold.
Got sent home/went home early from work.
What a boring day.

If I stay home from work tomorrow, I hope I just sleep all day.

( new house )

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It'd be very rude of me to mention names, but the two main characters in the movie "Garden State" remind me of two people I know very well. Ten bucks says, it's not you. They either won't be reading this, or they'll shrug it off.

I recommend that movie to everyone. It seems like an important movie to see.

I saw it with Shane, and since I was with him, I think I held back from crying. I shouldn't of.
One of the lines that Natalie Portman's (who is BEAUTIFUL) character says is "I look forward to a good cry."
So true.
I love crying.

Please go see that movie, and if you have, let me know what you thought of it. <333

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I'm updating this entry, but I'm keeping the previous one.

Debra and Daisy both had good questions, I guess I should of explained the movie.

The movie is about a guy who basically doesn't feel feelings. He doesn't show emotion. He lives in this plain world. (He's also on lots of medication.)

When he goes back home for his mom's funeral, he catches up with a bunch of people and the ends up meeting Sam, (Natalie Portman's character). It's just really amazing how different they are, yet you see the lvoe between them grow so much. Here he is with no emotion about his mom, and she's crying because she's so compassionate. It's jsut strange, yet so wonderful, that two people SO different can end up falling in love.

No, there isn't a tragic ending, but it's not a cheesy happy one either. It's a satisfying ending. Good enough to cry for.

It's so weird, right after I wrote my first entry, I started crying thinking about the movie.
It was truely... amazing.
Maybe I'm just weird.
Hope I asnwered your questions.

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It'd be very rude of me to mention names, but the two main characters in the movie "Garden State" remind me of two people I know very well. Ten bucks says, it's not you. They either won't be reading this, or they'll shrug it off.

I recommend that movie to everyone. It seems like an important movie to see.

I saw it with Shane, and since I was with him, I think I held back from crying. I shouldn't of.
One of the lines that Natalie Portman's (who is BEAUTIFUL) character says is "I look forward to a good cry."
So true.
I love crying.

Please go see that movie, and if you have, let me know what you thought of it. <333

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